Friday Jams

I think I’ll bring Friday Jams back since I have a blog and I remembered the beauty music brings into my life, especially when I need some beauty in my life. This, pause, is one of those weeks.

If you’re a fan of Ted Lasso, you may remember the hauntingly soft song played after the “No Weddings & a Funeral” episode. The singer, Molly Drake, lived a not so common war time life but liked to entertain people close to her playing the piano and singing.

The song, I remember, seems a fitting play for the week. I remember good times being Pastor John’s daughter, and I remember horrible times being Pastor John’s daughter. At the end of the day, memories serve us in ways to enrich your life, or to warn you of danger, or to allow you to wallow in your shit. How you use them is up to you. I’ve known people whose entire identity is their trauma and the attention they get for it. Gross.

Not being in my parents life the last nearly 15 years doesn’t mean I won’t mourn their deaths. I’m not a robot, I have feelings. Reconciling the pain with the joy will most likely be a lifetime effort, I’ve got this. Last night I was in pain. Today, I’m good. Check in in another 10 minutes, it will probably change. Mourning alone brings its difficulties and it’s perks. I’m not dealing with the melodrama of my sister and my sister-in-law (I think she’s still my sister-in-law, I’ve heard conflicting stories, don’t care. They’re all horrid people) which is a perk. I’m mourning with no one around who knew my dad, that’s lonely.

So for this week, and for Pastor John; Lynda; Grandpa; Grandma; Grandma Carlson; and Mama Bear, I remember.

I rest in the grace of the world and am free

Wendell Berry


About tosabarbell

For training opportunities at tosabarbell, call or text Juli at 320-296-9313. e-mail to At tosabarbell, I build relationships cultivated in a strength and learning environment. There is no 12 week magic pill program to strength but rather a lifetime commitment to be the very best and most useful human you can be. tosabarbell is a private, home grown gym with three lifting platforms; squat rack; prowlers; throwing implements; bars, bumpers and everything else needed for an effective strength and conditioning program. Straightforward barbell programming including the Olympic lifts; sound (read: not fancy bullshit) diet advance for weight gain or loss; and strong coaching will ensure you will meet your goals such as becoming stronger, more explosive, and better conditioned. I have been coaching teams and athletes for over 30 years. I grew up participating in various sports at various levels but was always drawn to those that require strength training. I have multiple local, national, and world records in the sports of Weightlifting and Highland Games Heavy Events as well as a combined total of 5 World Championships. My 5 years of training and coaching under Mark Rippetoe provided a wide range of influence from some of the top strength & conditioning and throwing coaches in the country. I will strongly encourage tosabarbell athletes to compete (and prepare you to do so.) However, tosabarbell is also for those who wish to be stronger and go through life feeling better. Matt WanAt is a retired Professional Strongman who competed frequently with Strongman Champions League in Europe. He played a year of D1 football with Iowa before concentrating on his Chemical Engineering degree in Iowa City. He is a native of Wauwatosa and still remains a staunch supporter of Tosa East. This blog will be a mixture of strength notes, coaching and nutrition tips, personal shit; bacon delicacies, and a whole lot of fun.
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